I watch the clouds blow in
And I think of you
How beautiful you would make such a simple thing
I wish it wasn’t like this
I know the fault lies with me
Its just
Things for me aren’t like they are for everybody else
I carry the shame of a woman I hate
As well as my own
It’s so heavy
And I don’t know what to do
So I just pile on more guilt
While time continues on
But maybe one day it won’t be like this anymore
And we can watch the clouds roll in together

Xoxo,

Matilda