There’s nothing to stop the pain my love

Years of therapy to define self awareness

Every medication combination

One at a time,

then trying all together

Long walks

Loving

Not loving

Praying to a God you swore would never exist

Spilling it all like blood onto the canvas

Filling the lines of the pages

Shocks to the brain

Succumbing to psychedelic glasses

Painting the world a soft rose

But the pain

The pain is still there

It never goes away

And time,

Time just brings more hurt.

Its time to give up.