If I talk about it my hurt will spill onto other people

People of whom I would never let experience this pain

Not willingly

And so it stays inside of me

Permeating every waking minute

Seeping into my dreams

I beg for the day it finally ends

I know death is peaceful

I’ve visited many times

I am just never allowed to stay

But, one day, I know

I will be granted permanent residency to that peaceful place

And i won’t have to come back

Eternal relief.